this is how it feels to lose a friend,
must be how it feels to break up,
this how it feels to fall and get up again,
fall and get up again,
fall and get up again,
and then fall and get spat at.
i've never been hurt this bad before.
i felt like i had hooks on the lower parts of my cheeks,
pierced and hanging with weights on the ends,
they weighed my smile down.
and it hurt to try, literally.
it was virtually impossible to feel better again.